8 years ago….It was the worst time of my life. I’ve honestly never been sadder, more scared, more worried, more stressed AND MORE IN TUNE to Spiritual things. It was during this time of deep, gut-wrenching and soul searching PAIN that I felt the LOVE of my Heavenly Father. I remember it like it was yesterday. Some feelings become so imprinted on your heart that they become the baselines of your life. You know, the ones that you reflect back on to determine your level of sadness or happiness? Well, this is one of those moments for me.
I was in the sleeping room at the Ronald McDonald floor, right next to Hazels PICU room, on my knees pouring out my soul to GOD and begging him to not let my daughter die. It was at that very moment that I was overcome with the palpable feelings of Gods LOVE and grace. I felt so much peace that I gave up MY WILL completely and trusted in Gods Plan for me.
For those of you that don’t know me, I kind of like to be in control of everything so this is a BIG deal for me. I truly knew I was going to be OK with Hazel living OR dying. I know, that sounds crazy. But it’s true. Am I happy with the outcome? Absolutely! Hazel is a huge blessing to our family and I’m grateful she’s here to experience life with us. The reason that I share this is because #1: I want you to know that no problem is too BIG for God, #2: YOU are a Child of God. We are ALL worthy of the hope, peace, rest and grace that only HE can give. We might be worried about the economy, our jobs, our health, our parents/grandparents or loved ones health, etc. BUT the only way you can feel lasting peace and LOVE is by communicating with your Father in Heaven. Pray. Intently. He will Listen.